Salil was right!

"Please, i beg you, please meet me tomorrow?"

"I'm really sorry man, my cousins are here in town! i don't think i can make it."

"Do you even understand my condition, i'm hallucinating about things all the time! i need to meet you asap."

"What?"

"ASAP, as soon as possible, if you only join the initials of those four words, it becomes ASAP"

"FY"

"What?"

" FY, Fuck you! The first two.. "

"Ya ya i understood, you need not be abusive! i'm really in pain honey, please, please help me!"

" I'll try ok? now please, i need to hang up. i'll give you a call tomorrow morning. bye, take care!"

"Bye sweety, love you"

It was difficult for me. I was pretty certain that i'm imagining much more than what exists. In my single room apartment in malad, i was distinctly putting up with atleast 3 people.but i was the only one paying the rent. for a few months it was alright,
till my roommates got employed. i had presumed that as soon as they would be earning themselves, we would be able to share the rent and other necessities for staying together. but this did not happen. i continued paying everything on my own, and just about managing to lead a comfortable life style, after they repeatedly assured me that it was only a matter of little more time till they get absolutely settled. i blindly trusted them. after around 7-8 months of their ignoring and eventually avoiding the financial responsibilities, i lodged an FIR against them, my 2 roommates. this is when i was told that i was living all alone, and those two were only a consequence of my being schizophrenic.
I had kept my family in the dark about this. the only person whom i wanted to tell this was someone who did not want to meet me. Kriti was the only girl i had ever made out with. she was the only one i had fallen for. she was the only one i could tell this to. but there had been serious behavioral changes in her lately. my common friend asif told me that she is dating someone else. i almost hung up on him. Asif was the lead for me to reach Kriti. He got me through her, not just introduced me, but also made me go out on dates with her umpteen times.

"Hello, Kriti?"

"Ya, hi, listen."

"Ya, tell me"

"See i'm seeing someone else, and he doesn't want me to meet you. i did not want to tell you this but you have left me with no choice"

"WHAAAT? FUUCKK?? Asif was right. You? Kriti, you were cheating on me?"

"Cheating? Salil we were never together! we were always just close friends"

"Are you insane? What about that evening at my place? when we both made out?"

"Salil have you gone totally crazy? when the fuck did we make out? i have never even been to your place!"

"Are you sure? You have never been to my single room apartment in Malad, Malad west? Opposite Inorbit mall?"

"Salil, you should get yourself checked. this is Panjim, Goa. You stay at your uncle's bungalow. You really are sick Salil. You don't need me, you need treatment,ASAP!"

"Wwwwww...waaiit ...kkkkkriiti"

"Bye salil, take care!"

I cried, with every part of my body in pain and disgust. i could not figure in what way should i hug the pillow which would comfort me, for i felt so incomplete on my own that i literally needed something else attached to feel better. and i was so miserable that i wasn't even sure that there was a pillow. i fucking wasn't sure whether there was anything i had! i was screwed.


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" Sir, hello, sir?? there? can you hear me sir?"

"Yes Inspector Koyande, tell me"

" Sir, there's a body outside ACME plaza, 24 year old boy, seems like a suicide case."

"ACME plaza? where the hell is that?"

"Its in Malad sir, Malad west, opposite Inorbit mall"